This Christian Life

How Can God Use Me?

Lately, I’ve felt burned out, lonely, and distant from God. There are a lot of things that seem to be piling up and bringing me down. Life stuff. Just the stuff that can add up quickly. You know.

Someone who is acting as a missionary right now in Honduras wrote this letter. The beginning is exactly how I feel.

God continues to show me His faithfulness, Dios de Pactos. At the beginning of the summer when I just moved to Nueva Suyapa I remember feeling so spiritually weak and far away from God. I wondered how in the world I was going to help in leadership and responsibilities in the church in the High School. For many days my prayer was just, “Lord don’t let me go. Even if I am fighting you and don’t think that I want to be in your arms please hold me like a mother holds her screaming child. The child thinks she knows best but really it is the mother who knows and provides the needs of her child.

Jesus did hold me tight even when I didn’t feel like I wanted him to. It is only through His strength and His grace that I feel so spiritually renewed and much more ready to continue to do the tasks that He has called me to do. I feel the Holy Spirit’s presence working in me making alert, wise, ready, and always reminding me to PRAY.

“Here’s what I want you to do: Find a quiet, secluded place so you won’t be tempted to role-play before God. Just be there as simply and honestly as you can manage. The focus will shift from you to God, and you will begin to sense his grace.

Matthew 6:6